Energy-Fear-Time just what do they have in common? In most cases not a lot. However in my life quite a bit.
When I had a project ready to finish I often didn’t have the energy or the time and then later when I did I would talk myself out of it because I would start worrying about how it would look. So instead of completing these projects I would store them in a drawer, on a shelf in a closet or in a box. Then I would forget about them until I was searching for something and then there they would be in all their glory. I would take them out look at them and think about finishing them but something else always came along it seemed to stop me and back into the closet, drawer or box they would go. Even when we downsized and went on the Road as Full-Time RV Nomads a large container of unfinished projects came with me. As most of you know last year (2020) we spent several months care-giving for my Mom and that gave me a lot of time to think. I came to realize a lot of my putting off the finishing of these projects was Fear. Fear that I couldn’t finish them right and they would look awful. That I didn’t have anyone to give them to so why waste the Energy or the Time it would take to complete them. So I looked at the projects in this container I had brought with me and I decided that I was going to overcome this fear and finish them. Believe me when I say it wasn’t easy to do. I am always asking the Lord for help and believe me I did then too. It came to me to break down the finishing of these projects into small easy to handle pieces. So I did and that’s how it all started. I began the first part of finishing my projects and then things changed again and I packed everything back into the case and brought it to Florida. So my projects have been stored for almost 10 months. In January of 2021 I made a goal list and on that list is to finish my forgotten projects, learn to use my new sewing machine(hey it has a computer and they don’t like me and the feeling is mutual) and learn to knit in the round. Yes I have had these needles for several years. I think it’s time to use them. Scary!
So how I am trying to over come my lack of Energy, Time and Fear is to try to expend only the necessary energy to do the project I am working on, take breaks when I need to, have a start and end time for each day I am working on a project, take as long as I need to to finish a project and not let the fear of failure rule me any more.
Life is to short to let Fear, Time or Energy keep us from living a good Life. Sure we may not be able to do everything we want to do however we can still find something that brings us happiness, joy and peace of mind and that is worth it’s weight in gold.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.